Saturday, December 13, 2008

Today was suppose to be a nice day everything is move out of the hse on time, cleaners are here to clear stuff up...and there is nothing much to quarrel about...but I did it again...I throw my temper at my cousin..about stupid stuff...like the bicycle...oh man!!!I really just feel so irritated about stuff that have been in my head...and it is just so natural that I just throw my unhappiness onto him...I always do that to the ppl I care most and love most...I dun understand WHY am I like this...and I really hate it...but after a good scolding I realise something so strongly...I just realize how naive I have been...I am no longer living life being a kid...I am at an age to be more mature and should be more responsible about things...really time for me to grow up and leave the dream and comfort zone I am in...I actually knew it long time ago that I should not be so childish...as I have a much greater responsibility...used to think that as long as I dun think about it and just live the way I used to be everything will be fine but it doesn’t seem so...this is the time for me...I guess I have to sacrifice a lot for now but is all for the benefit for the future...hope i can handle it...GRH!!!!!sian....