Living a life that HE wants!!!

Finally i am blogging again with a silly me thinking so much about everything and anything. This has got me really tired i want to get an escape!!! since i have started working there is no way for me to go on a getaway!!!

but i need a lending ears, someone who can understand why am i nagging and complaining or even a break down. But this is getting no where as my closes friend are not around and me. Saying it over the phone or the internet just seems not good enough!!! So much things can't be said or done through phone!!!i miss the time when i am studying, where people are around me who know why and what i am going through.

Now I have so much things in me and no outlet to let go. So i have buried all this unhappiness in me and i have become someone who no longer is me!!!i cant control my temper like i used to. i just can't control myself and i cant let myself go!!!i keep pondering on things that keep bring me down to no value of myself. i am like constantly on depression mode and i hate it!!!

This seems like a trouble teenage girl will face!!!Maybe cause i never grow up and that make me who i am now which is affecting me so much.